Life is an adventure of the heart, an adventure into love

Tuesday, 26 June 2012

Amber's Panda Party

Wow, I am so behind here. I'm not sure why I haven't felt like blogging recently, but I've just kinda gone with it, fully expecting that side of me to come back when the time is right. I wanted to share some pictures of Amber's party that we had recently. She is Panda mad, so we wanted a panda theme. When I started looking online for some party things I realised that not many children go for a Panda party (oh I do love my unconventional family) so I had to be a little more creative to make the party special. So without further ado here are some pictures, I hope it inspires anyone who has panda crazy children like me!

Panda balloon- from Amazon

I decided to get plain pink party boxes and then I decorated them by designing a panda and sticking it on. I used black card for the back, then I stuck on white paper for the tummy and face and then used a black marker to draw on the eye and eye patch and nose and mouth. I then stuck a felt flower (pre made) onto the head to add that girly touch. The boxes had sandwiches and various other party food in them as I felt that would be the easiest way to feed everyone, even better my very generous Mother in law made all the food and filled them for me, which was a real blessing. We also had lime green and hot pink party hats, party poppers, cups and umbrella straws and roses on the table.

We hired a local hall which limited us slightly because we weren't allowed to use blue tack or attach things to the walls unless there was already a hook there. I overcame this using lots of helium balloons in green and pink. Some had balloon weights and some were tied to chairs. I got the balloons and helium from an online party supplies website and we filled them on the day. I also strung some chinese lanterns across the room, I loved them, so vibrant.

The panda cake! My husband made the pandas out of icing and used cocktail sticks for bamboo. We glazed it all with honey.


All the activities went down really well, we only had girls which made the planning so much easier. The biscuit decorating was definitely the biggest success, some girls sat there and just decorated one after another!

My husband took the girls outside for some games after lunch, including the panda chases rabbit game, where whoever has the panda toy has to chase the person with the rabbit toy until they can get back to their place- like duck duck goose! They also had a relay race going on with various jungle animals in a bucket that they had to collect.

We had a wonderful time, and really enjoyed celebrating our little princess. I can't believe she's 5 already, it sounds so grown up.

Non credited photos taken by essentially you photography in low res form here, but really show the mood I think.

Monday, 4 June 2012

Thoughts on fear vs faith

It's a really tough time for me at the moment. I feel a lot of self doubt and my mind is going around and around with lots of questions. I went to baby group today and I felt very vulnerable and like I didn't really feel sure of myself or anything I had to say. I hate feeling this way. When the sun is shining and the birds are singing, but I feel flat and empty, when there are a million things I could be excited about or doing, but I feel caged up and held back.

The money thing has been really getting me down, and at the same time I've been really annoyed that it's been affecting me so much, because it feels like such a small pitiful problem compared to what other people are going through. Like why am I so hung up that I can't afford things when other friends have health issues? Then I feel like, well it's OK, it's how you feel because you let fear in, so just accept that you've been feeling that way and then move on. The way I'm feeling right now if someone gave me £1000 it would be gone within an hour, I am in total 'I want, I need' mode. It's being 30 weeks pregnant too and wanting to feel as safe as possible about the change that's coming. But I want to be content now, I don't want to prepare for this baby girl in fear, I want to prepare for her in love. I want to throw all this mind and fear stuff out of the window and feel some freedom again.

It's a constant tightrope walk, will I choose fear or love today? Without love I don't feel the wind of inspiration carrying me effortlessly from one thing to the next, I feel the wind of fear and I struggle uphill exhausted and angry. How do I get out of fear and jump into love? I don't really have the answer. Maybe it happens when I'm ready to let go, when I'm too exhausted to cling onto the cliff edge anymore, I let go and find that the ground was inches below my feet all along. The solid rock of love. I can rest, knowing that all good things will happen at the right times. That I am enough whatever I choose to do. That it will be OK if I do nothing. Really it's knowing that I am OK, worthy of love, worthy of joy, worthy of life.